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contents 02 /2020 - I S S U E 07 - B R E AK I N G T HE STIGMA Acknowledgement Cultural Warning To be written... offic te qui con repro of Country Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander readers quis accatatiusam dolorrum aut are warned that the following magazine may enim rehenih itibus dolo est eument Glass Media and the Queensland University contain references to deceased persons. earum di conet fugia cones seratiae. of Technology (QUT) Guild acknowledge Et aperumquatae nisquo estium, si the Turrbal and Yugara people as the First num net magnam, qui blatium qui nis Nations owners of the lands where QUT now et labore erspeles estiae quat estiunt stands. We pay respect to their Elders—past, Disclaimer est enit paria im que nam hariati aut present and emerging—their lores, customs Why Glass? autem a aciis simagnia earume aute and creation spirits. We recognise that these Glass Media informs readers that the views, enitatur ad quam eos aborend aectur. lands have always been places of teaching, thoughts and opinions expressed in this issue Et aperumquatae nisquo estium, si research, learning and storytelling. of Glass belong solely to the author. These num net magnam, qui blatium qui nis Glass Media and the QUT Guild acknowledge views are not necessarily shared by Glass Glassestiae et labore erspeles is strong, beautiful quat and malleable with estiunt Media or the QUT Guild. the important role Aboriginal and Torres expert care. That’s est enit paria im que nam hariati autwhat Glass Magazine is Strait Islander people play within the Meanjin to us. We understand autem a aciis simagnia earume aute its power to create community. beautiful enitatur ad quam things andaectur. eos aborend the strength that comes from sharing stories in this format. But glass can also break. There is a second election coming for the QUT Guild in March. So we, the current editors, truly know the fragility of our roles. We hope we’ve made you proud with this one. COVER PHOTOGRAPHY JULIENNE PANCHO 0
02 /2020 - I S S U E 07 - B R E AK I N G T HE STIGMA THE GLASS EDITORS EMILY READMAN Editor’s JESSICA PERKINS JASMIN GRAVES Letter ASHLEIGH NORTH “ Hello, For a magazine that only sailed its maiden voyage last year, Glass has taken some incredible strides. This wasn’t the editor’s letter we thought we were This is the seventh edition of the magazine, ever. To going to write when we were first elected. As you have produced something we are so proud of with a may be aware, the role of Newspaper Editor is up such a small, albeit mighty, foundation—thanks to for re-election, so this may be the last time we’ll Nikita, Matt, Lucy, Alana and Liam—is truly more write to you as a team. You can read more about this than we could have ever hoped for. online at qutglass.com. With the very real possibility that this could be our first and last Glass issue, we We hope this issue encourages you to take a (Em, Jasmin, Jess and Ashleigh) decided to throw moment to pause. We hope this issue makes you Breaking the ourselves into this issue and give it all we’ve got. laugh and cry just like it did for us. Seriously, we cried. Like, ugly cried. We hope it helps you But, enough about us. Glass Magazine is about identify the stigmas in your life and enourages you Stigma you. You sent in some incredible work for this to challenge and maybe even break a couple. issue. From what you sent us in Instagram poll responses, written pieces and artwork, it was very clear to us what stigmas need breaking in the Glass With love, and in the face of the unknown, community. You wrote to us about relationships, Your Issue Seven Editors, mental health, bushfires, environmental concerns, Em, Jasmin, Jess and Ashleigh ableism, careers, religion and community. The That only a few people ‘make it’ – success is relative. artwork you submitted represented the things that would like to see broken... That tattoos will stop you from having a happy and fulfilling career. mattered to you, the things that scared you and Stigmas some of you That being empathetic and hopeful is childish and naïve. the things that made you who you are. You were That having a political opinion means you are argumentative. vulnerable and shared with us your deepest secrets That sexual assault makes you breakable – I am anything but. and the most honest versions of yourselves. For Cover Photography captured That mental illness equals weakness. that, we couldn’t beby more thankful. Julienne Pancho That women need to be hairless. 01 4
ASS M GL PRESIDENT A Contents LD G GUI President’s OLIVIA BRUMM UT Q join the club Letter 08-10 poetry Hey, 12-19 My name’s Liv. I’m a fourth year law student For those who don’t know, the Guild is your at QUT and I’ve had the honour of being elected as your Guild President for 2020! I’m student union: we operate independently from QUT and we’re here to look out for you interviews so excited to see the launch of the first issue and make sure your experience at university 20-21, 32-33, 34-36 of Glass for the new year with such a topical is positive, safe and fun. We help run clubs and important theme: ‘Breaking the Stigma.’ For me, breaking the stigma means pushing and societies, hold cultural and social events on campus, offer free advocacy services, legal movie reviews through my comfort zone to challenge and tax help and provide assistance if you ever 23-24 myself: in my studies, social circles and get into strife with the University. work. It means taking risks and saying ‘yes’ to new opportunities after being restricted Our offices are located on Level 2 of C Block at the Kelvin Grove campus and my door is stories for so long by my struggles with my mental always open. So, feel free to drop by if you’ve 25, 26-27, 28-29 health. For my first two years at university, I got an issue you’d like to raise or just want to was very isolated and disengaged. The only time I stepped foot on campus was to attend grab a coffee and have a chat. humans of QUT Thank you for picking up a copy of our tutorials and to sit my end of semester exams. amazing student publication. I’m so glad 30-31 Last year I took a risk and said yes to running that we’re able to provide a platform for QUT in the Guild elections, and in doing so catapulted myself into the thick of university writers and artists to showcase their work featured and I’m immensely proud of all the hard work life at QUT and I’m so glad I did. There’s and long nights our Glass Editors have put 38-57 such a wonderful sense of community and into this magazine. acceptance among the student body at QUT and I want to spend my year as President Cheers, guild portfolios building upon this and raising awareness 60-69 of the vital services and support the Guild can offer – services I wish I had known about when I was a first year student. QUT Guild President glass editors 74-82 7
Join The Club 2020 QUT CLUBS 2020 QUT CLUBS Looking to join a club or society? Here are a few of the student-run clubs that the QUT Guild has on offer. QUT Business & QUT Women in Queensland Science Optometry Student Management Student The mission of QUT Women in Society Association QUT Qube Club QUT Quidditch NorSK Science is to promote equality 2020: the year of good vision for B A M S A i s a s t u d e nt-l e d and equity in the scientific field life and a good year to look into organisation that aims to bridge Hi Qubers! We are the QUT Qube Calling all witches, wizards, NorSK is a social club started by creating a community focused the gap between academic and your optometry society, QOSS! Club – the only club in QUT with squibs and muggles! Grab your by Norwegians, but now famous on empowering, supporting real-world experiences for QUT QOSS holds mesmerising events a strong passion in Rubik’s Cube! broomsticks and wands and get for fun and parties with Aussies, and connecting women in Business, Management and open to all, facilitates networking Each semester we run fortnightly ready for a truly magical time with Europeans and everyone in science – with members of all Human Resources students. opportunities and peer support seminars where we provide QUT Quidditch. Be enchanted at between. The giant Week Two genders welcomed. Our primary We do this by hosting a range p ro g ra m s f o r o p t o m et r y educational programs in solving our Yule Ball, test your knowledge Scandinavian Pub crawl every objectives are to provide a support of corporate events, with an students and supports OGS in basic to advanced cube varieties. at trivia nights and compete in the semester is a must-do for all network as well as encourage Executive that strive to provide addition to releasing st-eye-lish We have a range of challenging extraordinary sport of Quidditch, students. Join the moose to professional development and members with the tools for their merchandise. cubes yet to be solved. whilst having a truly fabulous help make our time at QUT as career opportunities for women real-world transition. Join the time. legendary as the Vikings! enrolled in science and science QUT Justice Society BAMSA fam in 2020 to see what QUT Economics and related degrees at QUT. the hype is all about! Finance Society QUT Dungeons & The QUTJS aims to create a safe QUT HR Connect Dragons Guild QUT Dance Society community for Justice students QUT Cricket Club The QUT Economics and Finance QUT HR Connect is a society and students interested in the Society aims to inform, inspire What do Vin Diesel, James Franco, We are QUT’s go-to social dance area of justice. We give them G’day guys! Gear up for that connects students to the and incorporate its members and Stephen King all have in club! We organise affordable the opportunity to engage and something new and exciting at HR industry, supports students into the real world. Some things common? They all play D&D, weekly dance classes conducted give back to the community. QUT: our very first cricket club. in gaining work experience can only be taught outside the along with over 150 QUT students. by professional instructors and We run professional events like It’s a social sports club where and employment in their field classroom and EFS helps equip its We’ve developed a supportive offer a wide variety of styles: Coffee with a Cop, court tours, everyone is welcome to see how a n d p rov i d e s n et wo rk i n g members with skills needed for tight-knit community where we hip-hop, jazz, K-Pop, ballet, panel nights on topics such as fun cricket really is. Let’s meet, opportunities. We work across success. Through professional, play D&D and other board games. Bollywood, contemporary, et cybercrime, counter-terrorism play, chill and repeat. The best university disciplines to connect educational and social events, Members also score discounts cetera. We welcome members of and human rights, and social part is that IT’S FREE! We have students through our social and EFS positions its members for an and deals at a bunch of nerdy all experience levels and we even events like charity trivia nights, some amazing events heading networking events throughout exciting and fulfilling future. stores and bars. perform at QUT events! Come BBQs and our famous Justice Ball! your way. the year. So come, #connect! join our little family! QUT Car Club QUT Asian Pop Society Artsy at QUT Vena Cava Productions Student Paramedic QUT Malaysian Undergraduates (SPU) QUT Car Club is a social club The QUT Asian Pop Society is Artsy aims to engage students We are a student-run theatre for all car enthusiasts of QUT! from any background, regardless Students Association company dedicated to providing your number one spot for all SPU aims to assist students Our members own a wide range things Asian Pop. We’re a social of whether they have art Looking for a home away from development and performance throughout their university of cars and we regularly host society on campus that connects experience or not. This is a home? Fear not, QutMySA opportunities for every student. degree by providing academic car meets and cruises for a chill people together in an inclusive community where people can welcomes you to Brisbane! Enrich We believe student art is worth support with self-directed time with other like-minded car and welcoming space. Whether develop a sense of spirit and your university experience recognising and aim to integrate learning and peer assisted enthusiasts. Our members also it be an interest in idols, dance, belonging within the university outside of the classroom and our members into the industry sessions, organising professional get to enjoy discounted track variety and drama programs, food environment. walk out of your comfort zone by offering opportunities for development events and events such as sprint days and or culture, QUTAPS is the place as you meet new kawans while students to make connections, conferences and hosting skid pan sessions. to be. participating in our Malaysian share skills and enhance their various social events. We strive events throughout the year! Don’t portfolios. to enhance the university say I bojio ah! experience for all paramedic students at QUT. 8 9
Join The Club 2020 QUT CLUBS QUT Creative QUT Women in Law QUT Dog Lovers Society Industries Society QUT Women in Law is a strong QUT Dog Lovers Society is QUT’s The QUT Creative Industries community of students who are newest and pawesomest club! Society is a club based around passionate about equality and Becoming an official club on a ny t h i n g a nd e ver y t h i n g equal opportunity in the law. the 20th of February, our focus creative. We love welcoming We wish to encourage inclusive is on providing inclusive stress anyone into our family, even if and constructive discussions relieving fun through having it’s just your hobby. Throughout on gender inequality, while weekly/fortnightly meet ups at the semester we love providing also creating a fun and social dog friendly places. There will be social events that let members community for all our members. free food, dogs and good times! mingle with other like-minded So, what are you waiting for? individuals, while also opening QUT BANDS the opportunity for possible QUT BANDS (Business Analysts collaborations. Additionally, There are over 160 QUT Guild and Data Science), is focused w e p r o v i d e p r o fe s s i o n a l affiliated clubs and societies, on professional and academic opportunities for students! so this list is just a sample of development of undergraduate If this has piqued your interest, what’s available. Clubs and and postg raduate students check us out! societies are one of the most studying Data Science and integral parts of life on campus. Business Analysis at QUT. We Medical Laboratory have organised many value- There are clubs for special interests, from QUT Veg to Science Society adding events since our inception QUT Motorsports. There are and strive to connect our student Our club is for students studying faculty related groups, religious members with organisations and Medical Laboratory Science, but clubs, sporting clubs, social professionals who are at the top our membership spans faculty justice societies, and more. of their industry. borders. A big focus for us is A university campus is nothing community support: we run QUT Law Inclusion of without groups of like minded a Peer Program to facilitate people learning and growing student learning as well as Culture (LINC) with one another. Clubs and offering guidance in navigating QUT LINC (Law Inclusion of societies are a chance for you uni. Into nerdy trivia and games? Culture) is a new club that formed to connect with others outside Come to our next social event! at the end of 2019 due to the the classroom. To find more need for more recognition for information about the 2020 AMPed QUT people of culture and colour in clubs and societies available the legal profession. We intend to students, visit the Clubs A M Pe d i s QU T ’s st udent to help bridge the evident gap and Societies page on the QUT society for all things Marketing, in representation for minorities Guild website. Advertising, Public Relations and International Business. Join us at in our legal community. Our our social and industry events goal is to create opportunities each semester to meet like- for students who belong to minded students, gain industry culturally diverse groups. We exposure and make lifelong do this through networking, connections in your field! You making connections with like- can also enjoy discounted track minded students and those in the events such as sprint days and legal profession, and providing skid pan sessions. students with opportunities to advance their careers. ART: UNDER THE VEIL SHANIA HAIN 10 11
Poetry THE NEIGHBOUR EMMA CAMPBELL Sunday morning, Soggy newspapers strewn across his driveway Last week’s headlines dripping ink EYE RHYME VERY WELL PROGRESS Sculpting contours On the terracotta pavers J. A. LIGHTFOOT CLAUDIA SHELLEY A rhyme is a thing most delightful to read. When I finish the packet of chips, Tuesday morning, They drop into place, rather neat in my head. When I can’t do a push up, Blades as blunt as butter knives 3 months past, It sets up a pattern and builds up a mood; When I nod my head to everything, Wilt lifelessly on his lawn A for sale sign pitched on his front lawn It quickens the heart and it tempers the blood. When I can’t pick up the phone, A patch of brown loosely stitched Leans tiredly to the left All can enjoy, there is no price for entry. When I leave early, In the nature strip’s variegated quilt Fallen tree branches crack and snap It makes you scream, laugh, cough, sing, mutter When I don’t go at all, Like brittle bones hitting concrete and cry. Let’s not take all day, or beat ‘round the bush: When I make a mistake, and Thursday evening, When it seems like a catastrophe, The house remains dark The house’s silhouette furnishes the road Rhyming is love-a-ly, lively and lush. When I cry, No kaleidoscope of pixelated colours In the last of the afternoon light It lingers and floats like a leaf on the wind. When I miss the bus, Laced with muffled voices I think of all the things I should’ve said It sings on your lips and it’s soft on the mind. When I can’t breathe, Erupting through his kitchen window As gold turns to sapphire, and day Rhyming, I find, sets a comfortable tone; When I lose every battle, becomes night And when everything is all said and done, And Rhymes have brought joy everywhere that they’ve 1 week on, gone. Blurred blue and red lights orbit the street I keep fighting. Ricocheting from house to house A navy uniform asks me questions through furrowed brows and bloodshot eyes I watch my breath dissolve like aspirin Into the crisp August air outside As I fumble for the answers I know I will not find 12 13
JOKE IN A BOX Poetry PAEAN SARKAR SEVEN LESSONS IN HEALING He’s balding under his beret A thousand cats have gone astray TRISTAN NIEMI Who is keeping The world in order? I. V. A mother cries, her baby sleeps TO THE QUICK A book begins with the opening My body finds music endlessly of the cover, a removal of the fascinating. In its longing for dance, I The moon, it follows cars and keeps on Spinning ‘round the earth CHLOE MILLS superficial. A book ends with the have been forced to abandon my mind consumption of the last page. many a time. And it seems, that to lose you rummage through my handbag, Closure is not found reading online your mind, is to find your soul. Like a man without a purpose. looking for a lighter. flicking away chapter summaries. VI. old receipts emptypackets of gum A taxi hits a traffic cone and pieces of lego. we drink beer. you remove: one can of deodorant, II. Humanity is not designed for the Two strangers on the telephone an old newspaper clipping, a Everything changes when you cocoon delicate task of developing the Who’s the maker movieticket and my tampons. yourself in a blanket of belief. It bliss-to-strife ratio of life’s cordial. the cigarette dangles in your will remind you of how to believe in Moderation is an undiscovered Of the mighty rules? mouth, ‘he’s a dick,’ ‘you deserve yourself. Just as blankets remind you sacred artefact, and cordial is The dusty layers on the blades of warmth, when there is only cold. always defective. Either it’s dismally better,’ ‘where is the fucking lighter.’ colourless or disgustingly vibrant. Of ceiling fans accumulate you remove: silvercoins, a bank card, Mathematics is a divine art, and we Until the spinning stops a nearly empty tube of lipgloss. my mouth is full of ghosts, my III. must remember to treat it as such. And the world stops too. mouth is full of beer. you dig even My mind is a glutton, forever feasting deeper this time: you pull out the on the news of the day. My body is an archivist, one who delights in rubbing VII. insides, the lining full of sand, I guess she’s singing in the rain salt in my more abstract wounds. The wound you’re now grappling with, rocks from weekends spent at like Matryoshkas dipped in molasses, The shower curtains drawn in vain creeks, a leaf, it’s veins driedbrown, might not be the biggest you’ve faced. For the Lord you find the lighter sitting next to a bottle of deepblue nailpolish you IV. But it is most certainly your priority, as it should be. How else will you Is a godly pervert. lift my hand, cigarette now lit, Reflection has twin daughters, Alone return to child within. and Lonely. Though they are identical you paint each nail one by one in looks they behave as individuals. The universe Doing different things to the mind; Alone comforts, Lonely consumes. Is a joke. But a lame joke Without a punchline And the teller of the joke is also boring Because he’s s t r e t c h e d it out so long Now we’re waiting around, L ong ing for it to end. 14 15
FORESHADOW OBSESSED CHLOE MILLS SOFIJA PILETIC TWO MINUTES OF MY THOUGHTS before you knew of my mornings sometimes I forget / that I am made up of natural matter if I don’t do this. maybe I’ll do 80 squats after- spent under soft human flesh is more like koalas & molten rocks / than ANONYMOUS wards too. that way I can fit in a half of a peach hands on top of soft smartphones maybe one would do. actually, half is fine. half a too, maybe. but it’s looking alright. yesterday it & financial problems / our flesh is soft slice of toast, one-fifth of a teaspoon of honey. yes, said I was at 42. maybe I can have a full peach sheets, you looked at me with contempt, a bruised mango / crushed raspberries at the bottom of our that should be under 50. so that covers lunch. but instead, as a treat. but what if it goes back to 43? I knew then that a body bag maybe first I should do 120 star jumps to burn the 10 no. I’ll just skip it altogether. I’ll just eat at night. would turn up we are more like butterfly wings / colourful but transparent raisins I just had. yeah, there’s no way I can eat toast but then the food won’t get digested if I sleep. I’ll nothing like our apple devices / instagram profiles if I don’t do this. well, I shouldn’t really eat anything just have water. it was in an apartment on the corner even though they rely on our constant consumption / & eat of Heidelberg Street us up the dog wouldn’t stop barking I wish I wasn’t like everyone else / only because I wish I DREAD wanted less while he held the small of my back GEORGIA SANDERS I know I’m brainwashed / a washing machine running in Anomalies become the norm The sweetness goes to our heads pressed me into his side circles hid me under his long hair As the drunks drink from the moon There’s sugar cubes in the water supply and circles / I forget / then I remember Debating half empty or full We burn sacred forests and scream we depend on a beating heart / lungs that absorb everything yours was cut short, but sometimes we put out While the Earth spins out of room At the fools who dare to get high you let your beard grow smoke, prayers & denial / it’s simple down past your chin & we still forget / but still pretending everything can be fixed Sustaining the self with sardines Serpents make the most sense like another / piece of technology That are more mercury than fish When they snap their tails and roll you looked at me with contempt again promoting clothes while influencing change / our Hope predicates failure Like men with eyes for the sky after you found out about the bare consumption is a part of the problem boned house, the second body As failure predicates a wish As they dig their way into holes but rubbish bins are magic portals / that make our ugly disappear would be found, floating along the river The cyclical nature of being The vultures are waiting for me like adding another comma / we can keep going I watched from the picnic table Means little now nature‘s been beat And the worms are waiting for you pretending it’s not apocalyptic / deflecting my arm resting Thorns grow warped round man’s heart So say cheers to the Earth’s satellite our prime minister deflects/ i don’t know if his prayers are real As he hammers splinters into his feet Because what else can we possibly do? over his leg or about upholding his masculinity / power reaching out for the fingers splayed upwards we don’t have to shake your hand / if we don’t want to The hourglass has broken his promise don’t forget to look outside of yourself / there are mountains We thought we could turn back time that are hidden volcanoes in scum slicked water, And paint clay on our lover’s backs your hand slipped many times lost cultures / don’t forget As they built new worlds out of lime onto cheek, lip, neck as the earth regenerates / comes back to life the greatest question is not whether climate change mine slipped, only once is real / what caused the fires / why but I died twice it is whether the earth will forgive us & our obsession with negligence 16 17
PoetryPoetry SYMBOL OF FREEDOM SATHYANI KOTAKADENIYA FORMALLY KNOWN AS… WHEN I WAS 5 YEARS OLD Over the deserts and mountain peaks JARRAH L. BARTON Through entwined vines and branches of trees JAK KIRWIN With you all, I have perhaps come I seem to have a soft Tracing the horizon when the sun sets in I loved, now My daddy said to me To accept Place for you all still. Birds were born to charm the world we live in. Dolorous ‘Son Any love I felt, you, Among the blooming buds of spring Balanced on bell towers that ring If you keep on asking If it was real, Can I say so? I am formally Cuddled within heaven peaks and sing About deep stuff I would not Sometimes. Known as To us all fluttering your wing. Like how sad would it be Move on. I do not have love. Caged within bars of iron When a swordfish Innocent prisoners, depressed entertainers Kisses his girlfriend On a precipice To stoop into solemn mud Let them live the life they deserve Let realization shoot human brains and melt their And accidentally pokes her eye out I feel you as And hold my head hearts of Ferrum. With his big sharp nose Wind on my face Until you Let love and kindness spread with the breeze I’m gonna need to put more beers in the fridge As the sky Drown me And help all living beings to live in peace Or start drinking warm ones’ In my clenched Again Let man lose his greed and thirst for power Winged creatures now spread your wings and So, I guess that explains everything Fists. You crumble gently hover. And you know mama said Me. Maybe my regrets ‘There’s no such thing as a stupid question’ Are more pigeon-like But daddy rebuked I don’t know Than I think of myself. “Then why’s he ask so many?” In what state Surely, I Or trauma made me Am special now Like this, but After the sky empties. 18 19
INTERVIEW A: Yes, my poems in Amnesia Findings focus on themes of family, Jewish culture, food, dreams and Finding A SEAN WEST mental illness. My mum played an integral part in my recovery. She was my memory keeper when all seemed lost and helped me find my way again. I unknowingly featured her in many of the poems in Amnesia Findings. Moment With S: Your collection deals heavily with mental illness and does so gracefully, often touching on the theme of memory or lost/damaged memories. Was it difficult to piece together feelings and experiences that weren’t entirely clear, perhaps touching on fiction? Was it empowering to reclaim parts of Anna Jacobson yourself in your work? A: It was empowering. I try to tell myself it’s probably a good thing I don’t remember most of my time in hospital, but the writer and observer in me wants to know what it was like. This loss of agency was very hard to come to terms with. However, I have learned that my experience of ‘not remembering’ is a valid experience and memory in its own right. Ever since 2011 I have kept a diary. Anna Jacobson is a writer and artist from Brisbane. I don’t take memory for granted anymore and my Amnesia Findings (UQP, 2019) is her first full- length poetry collection. In 2018 she won the There’s a mulberry poems and writing form a strong role in reclaiming parts of myself. Thomas Shapcott Poetry Prize and the Queensland Premier’s Young Publishers and Writers Award. tree that overhangs S: So, what’s next for you? Are you looking to Anna’s poetry chapbook The Last Postman the footpath near the continue with more poetry or maybe delve into (Vagabond Press, 2018) is part of deciBels 3. more art shows? I remember in 2017, we were I sat down to interview Anna late last year and park, with berries lucky enough to be exhibited in the ‘These Frozen Moments’ installation together for The Good Room chat about her stunning debut collection, ongoing that appear in spring. Collective, anything like that planned ahead? Let community involvement and any plans she has for the near future. Too high for children us know! Sean: Congratulations, Anna! It’s so wonderful to A: I will always write and create. Having my poetry to reach – the perfect sound-recorded in the ‘These Frozen Moments’ see your first poetry collection, Amnesia Findings, alive in the flesh. How do you feel about it finally height for a recovering installation alongside yours, Sean, was very exciting! In 2019 I was thrilled to be a finalist for the being out in the world? Have there been any particularly unusual places it’s turned up? twenty-something. Marie Ellis Prize for Drawing. I also felt honoured to have a photograph selected for ‘Out from the Mist’, Anna: Thank you so much, Sean! It’s so wonderful an exhibition which explored mental illness in all to share my work, and to have it in a book I can hold. its forms, including lived experience, relationships, I feel very grateful and I’m especially excited it’s in S: That’s such a lovely excerpt, thank you for recovery and change. libraries now too. I haven’t discovered any unusual sharing it with us. So, for those who haven’t read Find the full version of this interview at places it’s turned up yet, apart from the journeys the book (yet), how would you personally describe I take it on! I had fun taking a photo of Amnesia www.qutglass.com/anna-interview the body of work? I’ve noticed the poems are deeply Findings next to the communal mulberry tree, personal and enriched with family history and Keep up to date with Anna and her work at which features in my poem ‘2011’. often centre around ritual. www.annajacobson.com.au. 20 21
ART MOVIE REVIEW Little GABRIELLE SLATER LUKA KATIC Women Directed by Greta Gerwig There is a simplicity to Little Women that makes While Ronan is very clearly the lead of the film; it work so perfectly and makes me love it so. In Florence Pugh is the one who steals the show as fairness, this love may have come easier to me than Amy. This should come as no surprise to those that others due to my lack of any pre-existing familiarity caught her in Ari Aster’s horror film ‘Midsommar’ with either the original book by Louisa May Alcott last year (funnily enough both films feature pivotal or any of the other countless adaptations of said scenes in which Pugh dons a flower crown). She’s book that have come before. I’ve heard complaints so centred in her beliefs and ideologies that it all from people in regards to the changes made from comes through brilliantly in her uncompromising the source material, and even with this being performance. my introduction to Alcott’s acclaimed novel, the Gerwig has created something very special here – modernisation of it is evident. This is not a negative something that can simultaneously be based upon though – far from it. Rather, it allows the film to a book published in 1868 and feel so refreshing and feel liberated from the bindings of what has come relatable to our current social environment. Even before and is instead able to breathe as its own the lack of proper recognition for Gerwig—or the story as told by writer-director Greta Gerwig. multitude of other phenomenal female filmmakers This mostly comes through in the actors and last year (like Céline Sciamma or Lulu Wang)—in the how they play their characters, most evident in Best Director category at this year’s 92nd Academy the on screen chemistry between Saoirse Ronan Awards only speaks to the strength and continued and Timothée Chalamet who play Jo and Laurie, importance of the original text. respectively. They’re given a freedom in their It’s funny. It’s charming. It’s heartbreaking. It’s well performances that doesn’t strictly demand they worth your time. adhere to conventions and attitudes of the time the film is set. Save for the language of the film; the characters feel as though they could’ve been plucked from Gerwig’s own 2017 feature Lady Bird, just as easily as they could’ve come from Alcott’s original novel. 22 23
Stories MOVIE REVIEW SHORT STORY Parasite LUKA KATIC TY WEINERT Directed by Bong Joon-ho Father And Son Parasiteis a film that defies explanation as much as Parasite is a meticulously crafted film, with it does genre. On a basic level, it presents itself as a each action it takes being a deliberate one that’s I was 25 years old when my dad first told me he his Harley – my dad fits this stereotype. He might dramedy about a lower-class family manipulating a building atop itself. Joon-ho’s script is razor sharp loved me. argue with me, but it is through his actions that he wealthy household, but there’s so much more going and never holds back, constantly shifting itself shows his affection for others. Whether it’s mowing on beneath the surface of it all. I don’t dare spoil to side step what you expect of it. To rewatch is This isn’t a piece about the fractured bond between our neighbours’ lawn when they go on holiday or what writer-director Bong Joon-ho has to offer almost a necessity to get a full understanding and father and son and their eventual reconciliation. My dad and I have always had a great relationship. rushing the family dog to the vet at the slightest with P arasite. It’s hard to recommend without being appreciation of what’s going on here. He supports me in all that I do and always shows sign of a lump, his actions reveal his gentle heart. needlessly vague and it’s hard to be needlessly It’s a wonderful thing that P arasitehas been getting interest in my hobbies. As cheesy as it might sound, vague without setting confusing expectations of it. I have noticed over the years the traits that I have all the attention it deserves. To see it dominate he’s probably my best friend (sorry Mum). Despite It’s not that the film hinges on one twist or anything developed from him. I had never told him I love him the award season, taking home the coveted Best this, the closest we got to saying those three little but the progression of events had me finding myself either, for fear of creating an awkward situation. Picture Award at the 92nd Academy Awards – and words was when he would let me have the last snag literally at the edge of my seat, constantly guessing This is in comparison to me telling my mum that I becoming the first ever non-english language from the barbeque. where things would go next. love and miss her every time that we speak on the film to do so. Whether this sort of recognition I never needed him to say it. I have always known phone. Hell, I even get on the floor and tell my dog Performances are all around spell-binding, with will lead to a greater focus and appreciation of how much he cares for me, from when he would how much I love him whenever I have to leave again. each actor bringing enough of their own magic to international cinema in the public eye remains to always drive me to footy training or when he talked their character, so that they are all able to remain be seen (the Academy is anything but consistent) I understand why my dad is the way he is when it me out of applying for a different degree because memorable. This is most assuredly an ensemble but, nonetheless, this remains an incredible feat comes to expressing emotions – the influence of “even if the writing course doesn’t lead to a job, at cast, but everyone has enough time to shine on and a step in the right direction. his generation and the fractured relationship with least you will have done what you’re passionate their own so that a scene is never dominated by his own father playing a part in his formation. I I’ve seen Parasitetwice now and while I refuse to about”. From the weekends watching the footy a single character. Particular shoutouts go to strive to live up to the example that he has shown specifically mention much about it, what I can say together and discussing tactics and results, to the Song Kang-ho as the core family’s father and Cho me, but I also want to be a man that is not afraid to is that it’s best experienced with someone else. times spent listening to the heavy metal CDs he Yeo-jeong as the mother of the wealthy family. show his emotions. I feel fortunate to live in an age Not because it’s frightening or distressing to bought when he was my age, our bond has only Their roles both could have easily come off as where that idea is becoming more welcomed. I want watch (though there are plenty of uncomfortable grown stronger and stronger. caricatures, but they’re so fleshed out and played to ensure that my future children (most likely dogs) moments), but because you will absolutely need with an earnest belief in themselves that they Dad comes from a different age where it was someone to discuss it with afterwards. know how loved they are, and I take inspiration never ring inauthentic. They’re able to bring a true often frowned upon for men to talk about their from the time my dad shook my hand and told me humanity to the characters, despite the occasional feelings. Instead, they were supposed to be men how he felt. absurdity. of action. Looking like a bikie, adorned with long hair, a beard and tattoos, and riding around on I love you too, Dad. 24 25
SHORT STORY TYLER SMITH Stories Empty Glasses Day One - Three Empty Glasses Day Seven - Twelve Empty Glasses Day Eighteen - Thirty Empty Glasses Day Twenty – Zero Empty Glasses If someone were to find me, they would see only I can’t remember the last time I slept, or had Rain plays its repetitive yet calming melody on A full glass of water sits beside me as I open my the silhouette of my body slumped in a desk chair. a coherent thought. The days have blended together the roof. laptop and start the essay due tomorrow. I cannot The wall is the only thing that appears to be holding into an indistinguishable mess. My memory holds feel the gnawing anxiety that I know should have my attention, but I’m not really here. The scents of I start counting the seconds coming from the onto fractured pieces of strange dreams gifted to made its home in my stomach by now, but I type vodka and cheap perfume dance around each other endlessly ticking clock. Each one seems to drag me by the pills I take every morning. away on the keyboard anyway. The black symbols in my bedroom. on forever and encapsulates another missed on the screen follow formulaic patterns and show The appointment with my therapist this morning opportunity. I could be living right now. I open my curtains to see the sun, but the window no signs of the empty glasses that cluttered my involved too much of my eyes coming in and out of between us takes the heat away and I can’t feel Instead, I am just existing. room just minutes before. anything. There is only a sense of something focus against my will, as she asked questions about missing. my dissociation. Instead of her face, I could only People who could be considered my friends leave I try to forget the look on my mother’s face when find a collection of shapes before me. There was passive-aggressive messages on my phone and in she saw me in the kitchen this morning, eyes Instead of moving, I stand there watching a family no way to arrange the floating figures that would social media posts. My name is not among their carrying dark bags and lips mumbling an old song. walk up the street. Their laughter is the first sound make them take the form of a person. The feeling words, but reading between them I find only their If I hadn’t known better, I would have believed she I have heard from a living being all day. that something is deeply wrong with me echoed in resentment and anger towards me. was looking at the ghost of her child. It is 4:30pm. my chest again. But I cannot connect to these people. There is no But I’m not dead yet. The only thing that matters is that the day ends life in their voices to me, no matter how hard I listen without me realising. for it. Despite the endless hours I have spent in their Day Ten – Sixteen Empty Glasses presence, they don’t feel real. Nothing feels real, I hear footsteps in the corridor and pull the door of not even the pulse on my wrist or the marks on my Day Two - Four Empty Glasses the cupboard tighter towards me. My sister’s voice body that tell stories only my therapist will ever repeats my name, over and over again. I try to count hear from me. In the first glass, dust is gathering in the tiny bit them but the world fades to an empty void before of water that remains. It should disgust me. The I get past ten. part of my brain that registers those kinds of things has disappeared and shows no signs of returning She checks every room and doesn’t try to hide the anytime soon. smell of pizza and other food. I think she has left it in the kitchen – an attempt to clear her conscience My phone has missed calls, but I don’t remember after everything that has happened. hearing it ringing. Her presence finally approaches the room I am While switching endlessly between TV channels, hidden in. She enters and then becomes silent. flashes of the news appear. They tell stories of I can’t see what she’s doing, but she cannot know raging fires, floods and the 20s beginning eerily I am here. An entire lifetime passes before she like the decade did a century ago. Reporters’ words sighs and leaves, taking her noises and leaving the food behind. sit together in the air, desperate to be heard but waiting to be forgotten in an hour. I fall back into bed, hoping that this time I make it out of this void before the due date passes. 27
SHORT STORY SIAHNE HILLS Stories I See I see a person. Their head is down. Their gaze is on ‘What the hell? They’re struggling.’ ‘No, no. It’s alright. You don’t have to leave,’ I say, the screen in front of them. They are alone. They ‘I just wanted to know what you were listening to?’ They shrugged. ‘So? Everyone’s struggling with have their shoulders hunched. They don’t look up. something. But you don’t see others losing They smiled. ‘Ah, um. “Mister Simple” by Super I hesitate, I take a step forward, I hesitate again. I’ve Junior.’ their shit.’ seen this person. I’ve seen them around. I’ve walked ‘K-Pop? Do you like K-Pop?’ I asked. past them before. I see a person. I don’t know them, I see a person. They look up, they offer a shy smile, but I want to know them. I stop. I’ve been told things they look away. They appeared to be working on ‘Y… yeah,’ they replied. about them before. I’ve been told not to speak to something. I take another step forward. Would they Their gaze was trained on the table surface in front them. To not play into their “drama”. mind if I spoke to them? of them. They were still smiling. ‘It makes me happy. ‘Just keep walking. They’ll tell you their life story. I don’t feel alone when I listen to the music,’ they You don’t want that,’ I’d heard someone say. offered. They looked up at me. I smiled, I listened. ‘Have you heard?’ Someone had asked me. ‘But what if they want someone to listen?’ I listened as they told me how they felt sad because ‘No? Heard what?’ I’d replied. they felt they had no friends. They told me how ‘You don’t need their drama.’ ‘They were crying in the bathroom.’ they were teased, how sometimes it was hard for ‘How is listening encouraging drama?’ them to get up in the morning. They told me how ‘What over?’ sometimes they wished they could disappear. That ‘Like I said: you don’t need their drama.’ ‘I don’t know,’ they’d said with a shrug. ‘Does it sometimes it was better when they were alone. I really matter?’ I see a person. I want to help them. I want to support held my hand out for them to take. them. I’d turned to the person who had spoken with ‘Well, yeah. What if something is wrong?’ ‘Did you want to get a coffee with me? We can talk me and said, ‘I’m done listening to your bullshit. I’d more.’ ‘Why would something be wrong? They always do rather support someone. Not listen to gossip.’ this. They just want attention.’ I see a person. The person is smiling. They take my I see a person. They’re at a table and huddled into hand and grip it tight. ‘I’d really like that,’ they said. I take a step forward. I see a person. I want to see if a corner. They have headphones on. I wonder what they are alright. They’re crying. Hands over their type of music they’re listening to. I see a person. They are not alone. face. I want to help them. I take a step forward. I’m close to them now. What ‘They ran out of class,’ someone had whispered to if I’m bothering them? What if they’re busy? I take me. a breath. I keep going. I sit opposite them. They ART look up at me. They appear surprised – their eyes ‘What happened?’ I asked. wide and soon they’re looking around. They start to JADE CARR ‘They lost their shit.’ pack away their things. Laptop, books, pencil case. I motion for them to stop. ‘Did anyone bother to see if they were okay?’ ‘Why? They’re always like this. They’ll get over it.’ 28
“ Humans Of QUT Positivity & Connection READ MORE ON HOQUT’S FB READ MORE ON HOQUT’S FB STACEY LOWE JOSHUA MENDES While I’m sitting at my desk, I look up and I would never write a word”. I wanted to encourage Be the change that you want to see in the world. Just spread positivity and wholesomeness to other sometimes people passing by makes me smile. students to just start. Be the change you want to see in yourself and for people that you come in contact with, honestly, I enjoy that passing parade of people. I guess I others to see. I started being the better version like I’m not doing it just for myself. I want to make Another time, as students were getting back wonder what’s going on for them, especially as of myself when I started posting more memes. as many friends as possible, sure, but I feel so to their assignments, and maybe not getting the the semester goes on. So, this is just a little idea I noticed other people seeing that as well, and I damn happy seeing people happy in their own lives results that they were hoping for, I used a Japanese I had for hopefully communicating something didn’t even know I was making these impacts and for them spreading that positivity to others. proverb which said, “fall seven times, stand positive and supportive to people walking past. on people’s lives when I started off. I initially Being able to connect with people – not just by up eight”. One of my team members, Aislinn, helped me take didn’t even know people were even looking at my talking to them, but through the memes they post, it from an idea to an action by buying me window All sorts of things are on the wall that hopefully memes – it was just my outlet of dealing with uni through the songs they sing and through their crayons. Now every week I try to write a different mean something to students when they walk past. and stuff like that. When I got the message from the statuses on Facebook – being able to connect with quote on the window. Not just students — anyone who sees it when they (StalkerSpace) mods to be a mod, I knew that I could people is amazing. I love seeing all that wholesome wander past my office window! use that platform to help others relax, relate to each and supportive stuff online. So that’s definitely one Hopefully, it gives people a feeling of solidarity, other, find joy in this busy world and to hopefully of the things I’ve been doing, I just love to help make community and understanding so they know that help others become better versions of themselves. a positive impact on people’s lives everywhere, and they are not alone. I try to choose quotes for certain I’m happy that my memes are doing just that. times of the semester. When assessments are really busy, I try to choose a “just keep going, you will get My definition of success is your level of happiness there” sort of quote. within yourself. It’s the level of how happy you are with how things are going in your life. If you are I collect quotes in my notebook. I get them from living up to your potential, then how well are you students or friends – anything I come across. Some living up to your potential? Everyone wants to be are very academic, some are not. The first one I ever the best they can, and that’s fine, but if you can wrote was from Winnie the Pooh, for O-Week. It define what your core best is and how happy you said, “promise me you’ll always remember you are are with your own scale, I would definitely consider braver than you believe, stronger than you seem that as success. Being the best version of yourself, and smarter than you think”. I was trying to address not to others, but to yourself, is an incredibly the nerves of starting at uni. reflective experience. If that version of yourself Early on in the second semester of 2019, I started can also spread positivity to others and to help with a Stephen King quote that said, “the scariest them become the best version of themselves as moment is always just before you start”. well; then that’s just beautiful. It makes the whole world beautiful as well, one person at a time. A not her quote I used wa s j ust b efore peak assessment time. It was a Margaret Atwood quote: “If I waited for perfection, 30 31
“ From INTERVIEW Tell us about your most rewarding moment with You must be living a pretty busy life in the USA. How Roo Coffee. do you spend your days off? EM READMAN For me, it’s the everyday moments! I love seeing My days off are few and far between! I wish I could our customers connect and build friendships with say I spent my days off on exciting adventures, but I Queensland To each other. In the last month, I’ve witnessed two honestly value my downtime so much and just want of our regulars collaborate and record a song and to chill out! You’ll probably find me at Barnsdall the neighborhood mums join together to create a Art Park enjoying the sunshine while listening to “moms club”. It’s the little things that really make Science Vs or Making Sense, trawling the shelves what we’ve created so special. at The Last Bookstore trying to uncover an obscure California book about the Kennedy Family, or devouring a What’s your go-to coffee order? cocktail at Bar Stella with friends. In LA: always a 16oz Iced Oat Latte (from Roo, of If there was one piece of advice you wish you’d course). When I’m back in Brisbane: an 8oz whole received while in university, what would it be? milk latte from Dovetail! My mentor once told me that you’ll always be Elyse Goyen Vogue called your café one of the best places to eat in Los Angeles. How does that make you feel? I definitely get warm and fuzzy when I see Roo juggling multiple balls and if you drop one, you can always pick it back up. I own two businesses operating across two different continents (and covered in media! We’ve worked so hard to create timezones). I try to work out five times a week, Elyse Goyen is a QUT Alumni with one of the best 20. I never got to take a gap year, study abroad a beautiful community space, and it’s amazing to sleep eight hours a night, maintain a social life, keep claims to fame our University has ever seen: she or go on a Contiki Tour (which was the trip de be recognised for that. in touch with friends in Australia, be a good-ish made fairy bread cool in America. I sat down with jour) - so it felt like the right time to make a move daughter and FaceTime my parents once a week. Elyse to talk about Southern California, Vogue, Roo and explore a new city. But finding balance is hard—you can’t always be Coffee and her Brisbane roots. perfect—so remembering that sometimes you’ll What do you miss most about Brisbane? drop a ball, but it’s OK, definitely helps when I feel What did you study at QUT and when did you Absolutely the people! My family and oldest friends like I’m failing in one aspect of my life. graduate? are all still in Brisbane, so I’m very thankful for I graduated in 2012 with a double degree in Business FaceTime. I miss the beautiful sunrise over the city (Public Relations) and Journalism. during a morning run at Kangaroo Point, walking under the trees on James Street in the Spring, and Which parts of your degree best prepared you for of course Beccofino’s Duck Ragu. the career you have now? So, Roo Coffee. Where did the idea to start an Aussie I don’t necessarily think the degree itself can café in Southern California come from? fully prepare you for a future career, however I do believe that university helps you develop a valuable We’d been travelling to LA for Future Fantastic for a skill set that allows you to navigate the professional number of years with plans to set up an office here, working landscape. Whether it’s honing your and could never find good coffee. Initially our plan written communication skills, working in a team for Roo was to have a coffee cupboard with an office and managing various personalities, forming an in the back, but we found our Silver Lake location educated opinion and learning to effectively share and that plan went straight out the window! that opinion. I started my first business, Future Tell us about your biggest hurdle to overcome Fantastic (formerly the felix & slink group), while opening Roo Coffee. I was studying at QUT – so one of the biggest and most important lessons I learned was time There have honestly been so many, but certainly management and prioritisation. navigating the US credit system has been one of the more challenging hurdles. It would be remiss What made you head to Los Angeles? of me not to mention securing work authorisation I’d wanted to live in LA for as long as I can remember. among other administrative dramas! When we started Future Fantastic, I had just turned 32 33
“ INTERVIEW How has the work you made during your degrees not to the highest bidder… that’s how democracy developed your craft to what it is now, and how do is meant to work, right? We can’t give them the EM READMAN you think your formative work will manifest itself option to not consider us. So, what place does art in later exhibitions? hold? We can reflect the world we experience, but we can also robustly engage in the discourse. Budget allowing, I just want to make it bigger, install Art As A Living, in more public locations and engage more directly. Tell us a bit about your 2019 group exhibition, ‘Status Unknown.’ Has the art you’ve created always been inherently political? Status Unknown is the product of a collaboration between myself and Brisbane artist Matthew Yeah. I’ve always been fascinated by the spectacle of Newkirk. I had admired his work for many years, Political Being politics, and affecting change through direct action and one day out of the blue he got in touch with and art. me via email asking if I was interested in working As a trans individual, my existence is, unfortunately, on something – which was a huge honour! inherently political. I feel like there is no choice A year later, we were installing our exhibition but to engage in the struggle and work to reshape in Fortitude Valley, comprising documentation of various instances of protest in public spaces Aden Sargeant this political mainframe that perpetuates such injustice. Evidently, the system as it exists around Queensland. The exhibition would go is not adequate in addressing the mounting crises on to generate some controversy, involving the office we face: water, fire, land degradation, climate, of the Queensland Premier. In short, we displayed the injustice wrought in our names on Indigenous work critical of the fascistic anti-protester laws Aden Sargeant is a Meanjin (Brisbane) based visual I use scale to provoke affect in my work, and that Australians, refugees, migrants, people of colour artist, musician and graphic designer. colossal space with the tall ceiling and rigging and queer people. system was a dream to occupy. I installed my In our current political climate, what place do you Through installations of sculpture, audio and artwork ‘Slope 3 (Live Room) 2019’, comprising a think art, of any medium, holds in the discussion of video, Aden’s work responds to her disillusionment mammoth PVC banner hanging from the ceiling who gets to (mis)lead us? with the dysfunctions of the Australian political to the floor, which was projection mapped with establishment by reframing the elements of Think about how politically active other industries excruciating intricacy with the help of The Block political spectacle. Graduating from her QUT and interest groups are. Banks, mining corporations tech team. The work displays what one viewer and weapons manufacturers are right this second Bachelor of Fine Arts degree in 2017, she is currently described as ‘the axis of our times’: The Extinction applying a chokehold grip on our governments undergoing a Master of Philosophy candidature at Rebellion logo, juxtaposed with an infinitely through lobbying. Leaders should answer to us, the same institution. I sat down with Aden to talk spinning, projected Maltese Cross – which you may art, politics and the convalescence of the two. recognise from the Queensland State flag. Here, the So, Aden, tell us a bit about your relationship with State has fallen, and the XR logo is spot lit and aloft, QUT and the School of Creative Practice. glowing like a beacon. I began study at QUT in 2015. These days I am working on my Masters project and tutoring Creative Industries units. I want to start my Doctorate next year, all going to plan… How have you found the transition from being taught at QUT to teaching? I love it so much. I get to engage with students from all the different majors encompassed in the Bachelor of Fine Arts, which is so fulfilling as a multimedia artist and designer myself. What is your favourite artwork you have created as a student? Aden Sargeant, Slope 3 (Live Room) 2019 Working in The Block last year on ‘Excerpts’ was great. That’s that huge sound stage where they Behind: Guy Lobwein, Stolen Valour I, II do the fashion graduate showcases and so on. 34 35
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